Sunday, September 11, 2011

I am not afraid - What are you NOT afraid of?

I asked this question about 5 years ago. I thought it would be appropriate to re-post this today...

I sent this out in March via my eMail address, and got tons of responses. I thought I'd post it here, with the compiled list. I hope people add to it.

March 30, 2006

I AM NOT AFRAID


I was just thinking about how fear affects us, and how there are a lot of things in the world that I am supposed to be afraid of, but I'm not. I was thinking about how I make decisions based upon the fact I am not afraid - even if someone tells me I should be.

A student of mine was in a major bike accident last year. Two days ago, I saw him zipping his bike in and around rush-hour traffic with his helmet firmly strapped to his backpack. I called him moments later on his cell phone (I knew he'd be home) and told him how happy I was he was protecting the contents of his bag with his helmet. I was once also hit by a car while riding my bike. I do not own a bike helmet. I am not afraid to ride my bike without one. Among all the things I should be afraid of, that fear is perhaps the most reasonable.


The List as of

April 30, 2006


love
heights
walking at night in the woods
scary movies
riding my bike without a helmet
the middle east
homosexuals
heights
terrorists
the information technology age
airplanes/helicopters (although the noise they make scares the living daylights out of me.)
the dance floor
airports
therapy
showing my work
honesty
beets
being far from home
parenting
my son
death
life
risk
replying belated
being lost
brutal truths
awkward silences
solitude
heights/vertigo
speed
turbulence
lightning
spicy, sour, or bitter food
ugliness
snakes
aliens
aging
death/dead things
blood
needles
doctors/hospitals
childbirth
new technology/ideas/opinions
art!
Traveling alone
Change (not the money)
Being a single woman in a society that places more value on married couples and family
Starting new
Foreigners
the truth,
the present moment,
fundamental Christians,
growing old,
dying,
and being wrong.
using knives, forks and spoons that have fallen on the floor
straight people
eating new foods
crossing the street in the middle of the block
new ideas
My subconscious.
Aids
Strangers
Facing the music
Being broke
My health
Guilty people
rain
government
definitely riding my bike w/out a helmet
nuclear war
cancer
walking down an empty street at night
speaking in front of a large group of people
debt
DRIVING WITHOUT MY SEATBELT ON
DEAD
POLICE
DOGS
GETTING LOST SOMEWHERE FAR FROM HOME
SPEAKING LOUD
AIDS
CANCER
TECHNOLOGY
THINKING
METTING NEW PEOPLE
DARKENESS / WALKING AT NIGHT
TRAVELING
MISTAKES
BLOOD
HUMANITY
THE SEA
DESERT
germs
biking in traffic (WITH helmet)
ignoring norms/expectations/traditions
spiders
weird or new foods
becoming fat
Walking around Boston
Swimming
Sleeping with my door open
Airplanes
opening my mouth and letting whatever is there just fall out
the dark
a challenge
public speaking
bad weather
disabled people
True Love
riding without a seatbelt in a car
-- walking home alone late at night in nyc
-- eating foods that have passed their expiration date (as long as they don't taste/smell spoiled)
-- using a public restroom
-- further to the above, sitting on a toilet seat in a public restroom
-- going throughout life NEVER using that stupid antibacterial stuff for my hands
-- mice, rats, bugs, cockroaches, bees, worms, slugs, snakes, etc. etc. etc.
-- traveling alone anywhere in the world
a blank canvas
very deep water
dark caves
ideas I don't understand
fresh cougar tracks
being alone
electricity
delivering a lamb
admitting I am powerless over some things
affection
running alone at night.
germs.
bird flu
trans-atlantic plane crash
european budget airline plane crash
exploding double-decker bus
exploding trains
avalanches
falling rocks
language barriers
love
anthropomorphism
walking alone at night
perverts
kissing morning-breath lips
dirt
chainsaws
art that might fall apart
getting old
Iran
Iraq
immigrants
homosexuals
terrorists
spiders
snowstorms
thunderstorms
travelling
flying in airplanes
being alone at night (in a house)
the dark
the underneath of my bed
swimming in deep water
psychics
riding my bike alone at night
strangers
germs
my nipples showing through my shirt
my bra showing through my shirt
not shaving
new york city
moving/changing cities
mice
priests/the clergy
making the wrong choice
what's in my closet
what my grandparents think (of my choices)
what my parents think (of my choices)
what your parents think (of my choices)
marijuana
alcohol
monsters
aging
ghosts
relationships
I am not afraid of strangers
I am not afraid of the dark
I am not afraid of people of color
I am not afraid of men
I am not afraid of getting old
I am not afraid of snakes, or sharks or bees
I am not afraid of flying or driving in a car
I am not afraid of immigrants
I am not afraid of germs
I am not afraid of loving
snakes
plane crashes
tornados
dirt
god
the forest
the dark
Death/dying
Other cultures/religions
Snakes
Living in the city
Being alone
The future
Economic insecurity
Change
Black People
Provacative Thought and Conversation
Motorcycles
Powerful people
Tofu
dying in a plane crash
gutting animals
looking fat
having armpit stains
(also terrorsits, spiders and homeosexuals)
getting lost
speaking in public
having a family member/close friend die
rats, snakes and worms
driving a car
the sun
fumes
power tools
getting robbed
Life
making things with my hands
confrontation
getting rid of things
africa
culture-shock
snakes
walking home alone in the dark
people different than me
starting something new
body movement
being a single mom
public speaking
swimming in the ocean
driving fast
figuring out how to get someplace without map (i.e. getting lost)
Failing
Not afraid of chocolat or tofu,
long underwear or none,
showering with others,
dust in the house,
owning a ridiculous-looking car,
making sculpture in the way that suits me most and most of the world doesn't giveashit.
flying
heights
gaining weight
my father
dealing with horrible customers
meeting new people who might judge me
hipsters
mice
my boss
looking ugly
getting pregnant
the dentist
cavities
people disagreeing with me
climbing the tallest of tall trees or ladders that shouldn't be climbed
consuming expired eggs
snakes, NOT spiders
standing out in cheyenne wyoming
Poverty
Molten metal splash
radical thinkers
chocolate
making amends
going to therapy
crying
surfing waves (up to 4ft)
windsurfing
paddling outrigger canoe
speaking in public
groups
my family
my friends
helicopters circling my house all night
working on the 45th floor in one of the tallest buildings in Los Angeles
driving in boston
and when I really get honest- living
dogs
being happy
failure
relationships
friendship
vulnerability
water
honesty
doctors
silence
traveling through poor lands
hard work
getting dirty
being alone
sacrifice for worthy causes
of sustaining physical injury
I am not afraid of flying
riding a bike without a helmet (in the country -even tho I broke my collar bone)
homosexuals or lesbians or cross dressers, whatever
subways, MTAs, BARTS, etc.
avian flu
mad cow's disease
swimming in the ocean
roses
Rome
London
Paris
Tehran
mice
babies
lightning
fire
heights
the ocean
chain saw
h5n1
tree climbing with no rope
not having health insurance
god or a lack there of
debt
Global Warming 2000's / Global Cooling 1970's
the 2nd Amendment
Bird Flu, Mad Cow, Monkey Pox
going bankrupt
home birth
Democrats
Getting into a small airplane piloted by someone i hardly know
small spiders
new relationships
technology
the I.R.S.
my brother
eating too much cheese
mad cow disease
getting old
i'm not afraid of going to an interview with a black eye
love